Dear Father,

To put it simply, IF YOU DIED I WOULD NOT SHED A TEAR BECAUSE YOU HAVE NEVER DONE SHIT FOR ME MY WHOLE LIFE. Noone has EVER hurt me like you have, and I don't think anybody will be heartless enough to do so. You're a sadistic piece of shit. I think you find joy in hurting your loved ones. You bring out the WORST in me. I have NEVER EVER felt so much hate &dislike for anyone the same way I do for you. I have lost ALL respect for you, and I will NEVER forgive you for all that you have done. You are smarter than ANYBODY I know, and yet you live the life that you do. I was just thinking about why you hang out with lowlives like the dumbfucks that hang out in our garage daily, and it JUST came to me that you're JUST LIKE THEM. You're no better just because you have an education and a family. In fact you're worse because at least they're smart enough to only have to take care of themselves. You have responsibilities, they don't. So Fuck you, &fuck them. Fuck everything and everyone involved in your addiction. Fuck you for being a worthless father. Fuck you for being a shitty husband. Fuck you for being a fucking burden in my life. Fuck you for never ceasing to disappoint me. Fuck you for being the only embarrassment of my life. You're a failure. I hope you know that. You failed because you have had every opportunity handed to you and you dropped everything. EVERYTHING. For drugs and alcohol. I will NEVER respect you. I will NEVER forgive you. I will NEVER love you. You are the shittiest person alive. I hope you fucking burn in hell. I'm gonna laugh in your face and probably spit on it the day that you ever expect anything out of me. I hope you fucking die slowly.

Dear mother,

Please do not EVER ask of me anything and everything that you would not even dare to ask your husband. It is not my responsibility to take care of this family, neither is it my sister's. That's YOURS AND YOUR HUSBAND'S job. Believe me, I understand just how difficult your situation is as a mother of 2 young adults with tubes running through your body just to keep you alive, &I admire you for all that you have done for both of us. But I refuse to grant certain requests that come from you because your husband does NOTHING to make our lives easier. He steals from all 3 of us, even his own mother. He stays home all day, and does drugs at night. He's an embarrassment for all of us, and you seem to be in denial. It hurts me more than anything to realize how much you're willing to lose me over him. I can't recall anytime in my life when he acted as my father. He has never provided me with anything; whether it's materialistic or emotional. He has never supported anything that I do. He has never appreciated anything that I have done for him. You, on the other hand, have never called him out on anything. He has done you wrong plenty of times, and yet you still stick around for lord knows what. He hurts everyone around him, including you, and yet that doesn't seem to bother you. He's killing you slowly, and you're letting him. You're giving up on your children. We need you, but you seem to need him more than anything. For what? I don't know. I can't seem to fathom why you can't leave him. He's a burden on all of us. He has done nothing but hurt us all. &it hurts me that as my mother, you're not even TRYING to stop him from hurting me. In fact you're helping him hurt me by asking me to do things that are HIS responsibilities. It hurts me to see how much you don't care about me. I don't resent helping you, but my help can only go so far. I will only help as much as a daughter is supposed to; I refuse to carry on your husband's responsibilities. I know I can handle it, but I'm not going to. This is my first attempt at denying your request for help, and hopefully it teaches you a lesson. I'm willing to live with my grandma in the Philippines if the distance will help you understand how much you've hurt me, and how much more you would lose without me as opposed to the worthless husband, shitty father, and slum that lives with us &eats the food that we all provide for us. I have no hate for anybody but him, and I will NEVER forgive him for all the things that he has done. NEVER. I will never forget that you continuously choose him over me. NEVER. &I will never forget the conversation we just had. NEVER. You have forever hurt me, and things will never EVER be the same after this.