Push

I like to push a lot of things to their limits. I guess I like the rush I get from the drama of not knowing what's gonna happen? Hahah I don't know. I wouldn't be surprised if that's true though. I'm not sure if I should learn my lesson now, or wait until it bites me in the ass. I'll figure it out somehow.

So lately I've been spending lots of time with Matty. I love it! We're getting to know each other so much better and it's always nice. I spent time with Dion tonight and he actually opened up to me. It was a really good reminder that no matter how well you may think you know someone, there's always something new to learn. People are always changing, and we always have to learn how to adapt and accept those changes. That really helped me keep my feet on ground. On another note, me and Matty burned with A-ron last night and tell me why A-ron was creeping me out. I felt like Arlene cus I swear I had the concerned look on my face the whole night hahahaha. It was hilarious. Krystina had an open house this weekend and me &Matty just fucked shit up, it was fucking ridiculous. I've also been meeting a lot of new people lately and hanging out with different people so it's all good. I do miss my og ass friends though. So hopefully timing works out this week cus tis been a while since I spent time with Nicole, Jeff, Arleezy &MCT.

School tomorrow! The weather is fucking with my head. Mkae goodnight! Oh &I'm fucking up in school, big time. Fuck me, right? Whatever.

Super sad but it's very catchy.

+more.

I forgot to mention that I just decided to re-route my career path yesterday. I swear spending time alone lets you notice all these things you otherwise would've never noticed. I guess I'm going to be more practical and less dreamy. I notice that I'm slowly becoming more realistic and starting to live outside of my fantasy world. How weird.

Stoge?

What an eventful weekend. I watched Good Will Hunting on Friday, and I swear that movie instantly captured my heart. Do whatever your heart tells you to, and don't be afraid. You can have all the potential for "success" in the world, but if you don't follow your heart then all the fortune and prestige in the world will mean nothing to you. Anyhow, so I had a very juicy weekend, cus I was with my juicy line most of the time lol. We went to Kassi/Nohrelynn's telly on Friday which got shut down quickly, and we kicked it with Shantelle, Lexie &Vasean durig and afterwards. Fun people! I went to work on Saturday morning feelin' like this then I went to Nicole's. I have the best pictures of Matty on the jumper. I went to Mel's afterwards with Line and ended the night there. I have to do my paper and I really don't want to. I'm trying to find all kinds of reasons not to do it but I know I have to -__-. Homework sucks. I really really really need a stoge right about now.

Lemons &Pine Cones.

Today has been productive--somewhat. Well, I like to think so. I watched My Sassy girl thanks to Nero and I swear I've never seen a movie like it. I mean, I pretty much predicted the plot of it all, but I liked the fact that they explained every detail of life and love because I feel as though it's necessary sometimes. Signs, as clear as they maybe, will never provide the same clarity and certainty as something that is said out loud. Being positive is a difficult task. I swear I can't help but be completely cynical one moment, and just laugh about it the next. Whatever. I don't think i know what I'm talking about anymore. I mean. I probably do, but I'd rather share it with someone one on one rather than typing it onto this blog. I prefer one on one conversations because there's really no room for error. I can't simply press the backspace button and have time to think about wht I'm going to say and to try and make everything perfect. I simply have to deal with whatever it is I have in the moment, and I can't help but realize that everything is already perfect the way it is. There's no need to change the words around, or find the fancier words to describe whatever I feel. It is what it is, and I'm glad.
I worked out with Jeffrey and Krystle today. Cardio is my shit. Holler at me.
Oh &I kicked it with Nero last night. Nice talks we had. It really made my night.
I'm ready to get fucked up tomorrow night.
It's fucked up how I'm supposed to be writing my essay right now, but I couldn't get my mind off of the whole one on one conversation thing. But yeah. I needa get back to work.

Help, anyone?

I'm not gonna lie, I'm a little confused right now. I have so much time on my hands, and I dont know what to do with it. I want to be productive, but I'm fucked because I'm the type that can't do anything until everything is in place. I've been a wreck for the past week or so, and I swear I thought I was done but it keeps coming back. I need to learn how to hold myself together, fast. This is the longest breakdown I've ever had in my life, and it's pretty fucking scary. My head hurts. I'm tired as fuck for no reason. I don't know what to do. I think I need help.

Viva Las Vegas

I can't find the words to explain the joy I feel from our Vegas trip. I can honestly say that I learned so much more about myself and everyone else that was there. Every single person made a huge difference in my experience, and for that I am grateful. I have gained a completely different perspective of myself. I enjoyed every moment that passed by. I just wish the trip never ended.

Fun Facts about Trisheezy.

-I'm 4'11" and I really wanna lose 15 lbs.
-I don't have a favorite color.
-I hate wearing red clothes because I love wearing red accessories.
-I feel this sudden urge to correct any type of grammatical or spelling error on a formal document or during an online conversation.
-I get irritated really really easily, but I'm almost never mad.
-I absolutely hate getting yelled at.
-I'm not one to cry about small sad or cute things, but when I cry I CRY like cuhraaayyyzeee and it's usually out of anger.
-I have never been in a real romantic relationship in my life.
-I can't seem to like one thing for too long.
-Comfort zones make me uneasy. -__-
-I wear my glasses ALL the time but I'm really not that blind. I just don't like the bags under my eyes.
-I've tried quitting smoking one too many times.
-I got alcohol poisoning when I was 16 -__-
-Leadership was pretty much my life in high school.
-I recently met my cousin from New Jersey and he instantly is one of my favorites.
-I'm really NOT a morning person.
-I almost never sleep in anymore.
-I like to put songs on repeat until it starts to irritate me.
-I'm fucking raw at math and science.
-I would love to be a columnist one day.
-I really can't see myself settling down.
-I think a lot of people think I'm mean cus I'm so apathetic about their issues.
-I like to meet new people but I really have no people skills.
-Arlene might be the only friend I've kept since Middle School.
-I laugh at almost everything awkward and sad which bothers other people.
-My socks don't match most of the time.
-I REALLY hate it when people don't stick to their word.
-I almost never have cash.
-I used to be addicted to tapioca express &sushi.
-Thai food, pho, &sushi. In that order.
-I LOVE to dance like nobody's watching.
-The thought of limits and boundaries sadden me.
-I'm very accepting of people, friendswise at least.
-I'm very much interested in Ancient History, particularly the Ancient Mayan, Greek &Egyptian cultures.
-I'm REALLY quiet when I'm angry.
-I LOVE my alone time.
-I really really really enjoy being single. Like I stated earlier, I can't see myself settling down with anyone. At least for now.
-I like to be in control of my life.
-When people tell me what to do, I usually don't do it. Asking won't hurt, trust me.
-I almost don't know how to say no to my friends.
-I love buying people food.
-Jogging is probably my favoritest activity in the world.
-I STILL don't have a license, cus I'm STILL incapable of driving.
-I can stay home all day and just watch law &order:svu.
-I don't call people back unless I feel like it's important.
-I'm not much of a phone person, I think I'm boring.
-I can't see myself with any other name besides Trisha.
-I gave a lot of people their nicknames in High School.
-I don't think before I act sometimes.
-I LOVE random kickits with people who just text me and say "I haven't seen you in a while, tryna chill?"
-I text dumbass fast.
-I don't mind sharing poo stories with people.
-I HATE boogers &blood.
-I feel like yacking all the time.
-I'm always sick.
-I'm allergic to: mangoes, shellfish, peanuts, fresh cut grass, mushrooms &popcorn make me yack, &tequila. &more that I cant think of right now. Like a lot more hahaha.
-Shia Labeouf, James Franco, and Rob Pattinson when he played "Edward Cullen" are probably the most beautiful men I have ever seen in my life. On the movie screen at least.
-I can listen to almost anything.
-I like weird and random.
-I like people who smile at me.
-I miss my long hair.
-I cut my hair when I'm bored.
-I'm compatible with a pisces =)
-I read my horoscope even though I don't always believe it.
-I wake up every morning searching for a water bottle cus I get super dehydrated.
-I drink about 12 bottles of water daily.
-I'd rather drink beer than soda.
Uhm. This is all for now. I'm kinda sleeeeeeppyy.