Help, anyone?

I'm not gonna lie, I'm a little confused right now. I have so much time on my hands, and I dont know what to do with it. I want to be productive, but I'm fucked because I'm the type that can't do anything until everything is in place. I've been a wreck for the past week or so, and I swear I thought I was done but it keeps coming back. I need to learn how to hold myself together, fast. This is the longest breakdown I've ever had in my life, and it's pretty fucking scary. My head hurts. I'm tired as fuck for no reason. I don't know what to do. I think I need help.